Loving My Past

I heard it said "You  cannot relive the past"     Once something happens that moment is complete.
But these guys were talking about "what if anything about your past would you change or would you?"  This was part of a discussion that stemmed from a reading in Color of Light.

Most of agreed, we may not be at the exact place we wanted to be or since I prefer I statements "I am not where I thought I'd be in life, I can say I'm ok if not downright pleased. 


It's good know my story, my life journey and the pitfalls and the mountain tops.

I've had rich experiences that make up whom I am today. Climbing mountains in Cimarron New Mexico, working in Kenya.  Riding my bicycle trough a  cloud in Alaska are only a few of the joys I've known on this path.   Had I not been HIV positive I know I'd never do those things, felt that awe or such

I'm not looking back but embracing my life: there's a brilliant future ahead and a past I adore

Nike

For my USA friends who follow news I'm guessing your aware of the "Nike Controversy"

Basically Nike corporation has advertising using Collin Kaepernick using a phrase"Believe in something even it means sacrifice"    Despite what others say or write, by affirming is idea of protesting he's lost the opportunity to play football professionally.  

Whether you agree or not he's making a bold statement.  I've done that to when I don't say with shame I am not only gay/queer but someone with HIV whose in recovery.  

What statement do you take to be bold about?  Just do it

Starting Something New

Two years ago my divorce became finalized.   I didn't date right off, Not even after several moatnths.
Even then each date seemed base.  I asked myself recently the same question I asked after becoming single: "Will I date again?"

Since there is no set rule I'm still playing this one by ear

I also completed grad school and I'm not really working in the field I studied for, until now

Something new came along and it is in the form of a friend I've known for 20 years
I'll be helping an organization in Palm Beach County. 

Bottom line, in one way I'm starting new again.   Is there some part of your life where you can start new, too?

Change

My friend from church has some wise comments.  He's soft spoken yet he gets his point and message across.  He helps so many build change each week, too.

I'll admit that I have feared changes: new home, job, even just the weather.  Why fear what I cant change?    I CAN  change my mood, my outlook and expectations

'Lets you and i not WAIT for change but embrace it as growth

Goodness is as Goodness Does

Webster defines "doing goof" thusly

make a helpful contribution to a situation

There seems t be an increasing  amount of frustration and anger.  I think it the divisions growing in American lives (dare i say politics?).    

Even as I try to live an even keel existence I'm very frustrated.  That's when I'm reminded people through out time could use reminders to be good to each other.   

I will refocus on being kind when others are not so, I will be understanding when other people hold differing outlooks.  Can we do this together?

Remember, too t be good o yourself.   I ca do good when my mind, body and spirit are in good shape

Door and You

"A entry door can make all the difference"

I read that on someones Instagram and it made think

How do I open up to others?  Am I like a bank vault, a screen door, a pair of French doors or a swinging one?

I choose to be open yet guarded.  How about you???

This Too

This, too shall pass is often said when something goes not as expected. 

I've learned through a divorce, cancer diagnosis, addiction: things often called bad, don"t last.
I'm OK dating now, cancer was treated and addiction is being addresses

This, too shall pass...

I heard someone offer a retort, good things pass, too.

For those who have read this blog for some time know I believe all things change

Facing a challenge I have seen a pebble feel like a boulder. By facing a problem that pebble will remain a pebble. 

Moving forward I can put that pebble to use and add it to cover the path on this journey

This, too shall pass..

In the musical Godspell there is an appropriate song  By My Side    Please listen to the words