Tuesday, April 25, 2017


Lately I've been "beating myself up" for making major life changes and it got me to think "I'm not worth..."
To heck with that! I am and you are worth goodness, happiness and love

I was reading in The Body about self hate/self love

"What if I make a mistake and embarrass myself?" "Maybe I could have done it before, but it's too late now." "I'll never be able to do it, so what's the point of trying?" Everyone hears negative "voices" in their heads

love That was ME to a point until while chatting with a friend it hit me "I am worth all the good things I plan"

As an almost 55 yr old queer man living with HIV and 17 yrs sober I foolishly thought "who would love me?"  

I do!  I love me. I adore the struggles I've had, set backs and more so the gains in life

I adore me and you too

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Moving On

Have you  had "one of those days?"  Well I've been having "one of those days" for three weeks.

Without going into detail the two words that resonate CONSTANT CHANGES fill my angst

People have passed on, classes changed, a new doctor, rejection email, major house repairs, etc

Thank goodness I have a decent therapist to go over details yet small changes build up.

Last night I attend a concert where Aaron Copeland's "Fanfare for Common Man" was played two times.   That is one piece of music that brings peace to my confusion. Twice that performed Fanfare.

It helped me concrete a few decisions and I'm ready to move on.   Join me on moving on too please

Let's lets fear, confusion, other peoples ignorance not hold us/me back

Tuesday, April 4, 2017

New Energy

Being newly single I've been using "online" dating to find what appears at times, the elusive

What to write about myself is more than my fear on these sites and even IN PERSON

I know what won't work is putting down others, limiting expectations, shaming others, using phrases like "UB2" or "No fems, etc"     I write about the good things that stir my spirit

I/we can apply this to most of our lives.  Let's remove negative comments from our speech and they'll be gone from our thoughts.  Not an easy task but one that can be achieved

Monday, April 3, 2017

My Story

I heard at a workshop this past weekend
"My history is not a blunt instrument"

My mistakes are mine. I own my addiction. I own my health issues. I own my foolish investment mistakes

I am fully aware of the past I led while focusing 100% on a great future.  

Please don't hold me or anyone else to a past when that past was a teaching experience.

Thursday, March 23, 2017

Inhale Goodness

Right now in the USA there is so much angst over political issues. We're a country strongly divided

Odd that while at work Wednesday I heard someone from Mexico as he exited customs after a cruise "I LOVE AMERICA"

I am  going to breath in his excitement in all things and exhale the bullshit

You can too. Trust me this will help us all feel better

Friday, March 10, 2017

Slow down

We've all heard "stop and smell the roses"   Easier said that done you/i may think. With so much going on it's best to keep abreast of the latest, the most unusual, the unique.

Slow down, breath and accept the world will still turn without our worry.

Since I work from home a lot, being a student does that I find having soft music on in background slows down the busy sounds of where I live.

No TV right before bed. That ones's harder but oh so worth it.

Talk with friends, NO TEXTING or tweeting.  Call or see in person those we want to share or joys with.

Slow down, enjoy the simple

Monday, March 6, 2017

Negative Voices

Ignore the Negative Noises

Lately I've been feeling a bit down in the dumps. A few things have happened at work to make me feel like nothing’s going my way. Those thoughts can be overwhelming

I've learned a few tricks to overcome negativity I'll share here

  • Just because some of our thoughts are negative doesn’t mean we have to listen to them
  • The truth is, you are not your thoughts.

Most negative thoughts are not based on reality. So ask yourself, “Is that thought 100% true?” Usually this will help to break down the meaning of the thought.

Instead of finding ways to escalate the thought, do the opposite and look for ways to prove that the thought is not true.

You are not your thoughts. Resist the urge to beat yourself up when you catch yourself thinking negatively. Everyone has negative thoughts from time to time. Just be aware and choose not to listen to all of them so you can get on with living your life.